I suck

I can admit it.  I suck.  At blogging. 

It is not like there is not enough to talk about.  There is a ton. 

Holidays.
Work.
Family.
News.
Opinions.

Oh the list can go on.  And yet I find myself silent.  Well not silent.  I talk.  A lot.  But my fingers ares.  It is so hard to put thought on blog these days.  I am not sure when that might end.

The major news -- well for me --includes:

Ladybug has been officially diagnosed with RAD.  Not really shocking.  But disappointing.  Heart breaking.  And in some ways -- relieving.

Ladybug starts taking meds this Friday.  After much debate I agreed to Guanfacine.  While I waited for the pediatrician and therapist to talk I experimented on my own.  Caffeine.  Mountain Dew for breakfast.  And more caffeine for lunch.  On days she had it -- school was wonderful.  On days she didn't -- not so much.  Today she punched a kid in the gut this afternoon.  Guess what she didn't have for lunch...

Doing my homework to prepare for Ladybug's sleep study.  Because she never sleeps.  Because I never sleep.  And because all the caffeine is making it worse.

Ladybug wants glasses.  So much so she fake the eye test -- at the doctor's office and school -- and failed.  She has an appointment with an optometrist in the beginning of the year.  I am willing to get her fashion glasses if she passes the eye test.

I had to cancel her dentist appointment.  Because I apparently picked a dentist who is a racist, classist wench.  So I need to find a new one for her.  I fear we have a lot of visits in our near future.

I have not even begun to look for a doctor for myself.  As a result it has been over 4 months since I have had my medication -- for my thyroid.  And it is exhausting me.  I need to do this.

And on that note... it is bedtime.

Mean Mama