I can feel it

It is creeping in.  It keeps coming.  I can see the signs.  I can feel it getting closer and closer.  And yet I feel incapable to stop it.

What is looming?  What is coming?  What seems inevitable?

Depression.

I have been denying it.  I mean I moved 9 months ago.  I have a job.  I have money.  I am getting things done.  I am making friends.  I am seeing family. 

But the darkness is taking over.  The desire to not move has descended.  The shrug and turning my back on what needs to be done has started.  The avoidance is rampant -- in case you haven't noticed that I am pretty much not blogging.

There are options...

I could get into counseling... oh wait, I already am in counseling.
I could get more sleep... but I already am.  Maybe I am getting too much?
I could get organized.  Trying.
I could eat better.  Trying.
I could drink... now that is something I haven't tried yet.

Please make the depression go away.  It is not welcomed here.  We are not friends.  It is not an obstacle I have any desire to deal with again.

Mean Mama