I need help

Really!

I have struggled with my weight my entire life.  I know a million or so other females say that.  Okay, not my entire life.  I was 6 pounds 8 ounces at birth.  That's not bad.  But it went down hill from there.

I need to change it. 

It was under control all through high school.  With a lot of work.  From me.  From my parents. 

It was under control when I was a runner.  With a lot of work.  I ran an average of 30 miles a week and I managed to stay around the 150 mark.

I would kill to be around the 150 mark again.

I am no where near that at this point.  I think it is a large part of my depression at this point.

But I have no inner motivation to get it done.  I need someone else to do it for me.  Apparently.

Help me!

Mean Mama