I am stressed

I think I have earned it.  I am stressed.  Life is hard right now.  But I refuse to fall into the trap that I hate seeing people fall into all the time.  It's the "I had a shitty childhood so I deserve to be fucked up" syndrome.  Life is stressful -- so what.  What ya going to do about it?

But first let's review things that may be contributing to my current stress.

1. I moved 11 months ago.
2. I started a new job 11 months ago.
3. Finances -- I should be use to that since that never changes.
4. My child has attachment issues, anxiety issues, ADHD issues, etc???
5.  I travel a lot to see family and friends.
6.  I do all the cooking and cleaning in the house.
7.  I am single.
8.  My mom has decided to become a nun.

I could really use some medications now.  I could use a therapist (of my own!) to verbal vomit about all my stress.  Because it is beginning to seep out and Ladybug is responding to it.

Today was homework day.  Lots of sighing.  Lots of dirty looks.  Lots of throwing pencils.  Lots of ridiculous answers. 

Then I asked her to clean up her things.  I was nice enough to even put all the things in one spot.  She just needed to trash it or put it away.  Lots of complaining.  Lots of stomping.

And then she started throwing things.

So I lost it.  Sent her to her room.  So she grabs her computer and heads up to her room.

What??  Her computer.  I don't think so.

So she brings it back down and opens it up and starts to do something on her computer.  I close it.  She yells that she needs to shut it down.  I tell her the only thing she needs to do is go upstairs and if she touches the computer again I am throwing it away.

I managed to shower, dress, drive across town, and do at least 1/2 the shopping before she even considered the option of starting to forgive me.

Hopefully tomorrow I can be a better parent.

Mean Mama