delayed update

I know I am way behind on my weight update. It is not entirely intentional. A little. But not entirely.

On the last Sunday of my diet -- October 24th, I think -- I weighed myself and I wanted to throw the scale out the window. But since I rent, and I can not afford to fix a window, I did not. I was disgusted.

266.

Yuck!

So I decided not to do an update. Maybe, just maybe, I could get down to 265 (or lower) by Thursday -- the last day of this round of my diet. I was hopeful.

It didn't happen.

That week I bloated. Serious bloating. I am fat. I am use to it. I don't notice bloating most days. My pants don't get tight when I get my period -- they are tight all the time. But I tried to put my rings on and they would not go over my fingers. Seriously. The same rings that I could wear on the same fingers when I was nearly 30 pounds heavier. And they hurt.

I lived with it for a couple of days and then I bought a diuretic. Yeah, those things don't work.

So by the end of the week I had gained another pound. 267! Oh that is not good.

And then I went away for the weekend. Over Halloween. That has bad written all over it. And it was bad. I ate. A lot. Of bad things. At one point I looked at my friend and said, "I think I have been here for 30 hours and I think I have put on 30 pounds." It felt like it.

But I was wrong. On Tuesday morning I weighed myself and it said 270. Yuck. Good. I mean I was not suppose to be 270. But at least I did not gain 30 pounds.

I have worked hard this week and I am now at 268.8. Not great. But good. I am working slowly to get back down to 265. Hoping by Thanksgiving.

This portion of the diet I am suppose to stay within 2 pounds of my last weigh in. 265 is the goal. And I am starting exercises. Just mild stuff. To firm and tone. So that I don't have a ton of sagging skin at the end of this.

I will keep you posted.

Mean Mama