Being honest

I am told that I must be honest about the diet.

So... I cheated yesterday. It wasn't a big cheat. But this diet is very unforgiving. I am great at this diet while at work. I mean, I can only eat what I brought with me. There is not kitchen stocked with food there. And I am poor so I can't just pop out to get some junk -- usually.

I made dinner last night. I had dinner within my diet guidelines. And I made Ladybug a cheeseburger and slices of green peppers (not nearly as loved as french fries). She ate about 2/3 of her cheeseburger when she announced she was done. We are not members of the clean plate club so I just reminded her this was dinner and if she was going to be hungry later she needed to eat now. She said she was full.

I let her go play as I sat at the table and read a local parenting magazine.

And her cheeseburger sat across the table from me, talking to me. Seriously. "Eat me!" "Eat me now!" In that voice from the venus fly trap plant in Little Shop of Horrors. Really. I could hear it. Or maybe I was hallucinating.

So I ate it.

I know it was wrong. I knew it at the time. But I could not (or did not want to) stop myself.

I stepped on the scale this morning and ...

Up .4 of a pound.

That is not a big gain. And I can lose it quickly again. And I will not beat myself up for it. But I will not cheat again. I will not cheat again. I WILL NOT CHEAT AGAIN. It is only 20 more days of dieting this round. 20 days! I can do this.

Fingers crossed for a more successful day today.

Mean Mama
PS- 5.2 down and 119 to go.