Love

I fell in love today. After all of Ladybug's efforts to find me a husband (or more accurately a daddy for her), I fell in love without her help.

I fell in love with a profile on the computer. I have tried online dating before. Well... not really. I signed up. And I looked at profiles. But I never did anything with it. And tonight I saw a profile online and I know. I know I am meant to be with this person. I know it. Have you ever had that feeling?

When I adopted Ladybug I did a ton of research about where to adopt from. I could not make up my mind. And then my cousin suggested Ethiopia and I knew instantly. Instantly. I didn't need to research. I didn't need to think about it. I knew my child was in Ethiopia. And I was right.

And tonight I stared into these deep brown eyes on the computer and I knew. Again. That I am suppose to be the mom of this little girl. She is cute. And the right age (just older than Ladybug). And she speaks to me. I am in love.

But can I do it? Can I adopt again? Can I come up with the money? And get through the process?

Am I crazy?

Mean Mama