Another complaint

Okay so I go on vacation -- as you are aware. I have not seen any of my friends and family for months. I certainly have not seen any of them since I started my starvation diet. I ended the starvation diet at the end of June with a 24 pound loss. I understand that at my weight 24 pounds is not significant. I get it. But it is significant to me. It is about an 8% weight loss. Experts (whoever the experts may be) say that even a 10% weight loss can significantly decrease your chances of heart disease, diabetes, and death. I got close to that number. I have kept my weight loss a secret. I shared with none of my friends and family that I was seeing on vacation. I mean, if I failed at weight loss -- again -- it would be worse.

So I go on vacation. How many people notice? Oh that's right. NOT ONE. Come on people. I am down 2 sizes. I can haul my fat ass off the floor. My stomach now only has 2 parts instead of 3. I even wore a bathing suit one day. I lost weight! I need you to notice. I needed the encouragement.

Some of you may think it is just that they weren't looking for it. Most were. They always are. Plus my sister was there and it is pretty much all she talked about -- her weight loss not mine. And not to be mean -- but I didn't notice it on her. I have no idea how much she has lost but it didn't seem like much. And my step mom -- who, in general, I really do like -- said that she was worried that I would die before her if I didn't start at least trying to lose weight.

I AM LOSING WEIGHT! 24 pounds to be exact.

But I kept my mouth shut. This is about me. This is for me. Encouragement would have been nice. But I can do this -- with or without others.

So I am going back on the wagon. Back on the starvation wagon. Back on the HHCG. And I am looking forward to it. I am loading for 3 days -- Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. And starting phase 2, round 2 on Monday. It is about 1.5 weeks early but I am doing it. I currently plan to stay on P2 until Halloween. And then progress through P3 by Thanksgiving and be in P4 through the holidays. Then I can go back to P2 at the beginning of the year.

Goals: Really excited = 40 more pounds by Halloween.
Really happy = 30 more pounds by Halloween.
Willing to settle for = 25 more pounds by Halloween.

It is nearly 90 days of dieting. I can do this! I heard on the radio this morning that good things happen to positive people so I am trying to be positive.

They (meaning the friends and family I will see at Thanksgiving and Christmas) will notice a 49 pound weight loss? Surely they will cheer at at 54 pound weight loss? They will be amazed by a 64 pound weight loss? Won't they?

I will keep you posted.

Mean Mama