Losing it .... Again!

Back on the HHCG train this week. I had the gorging days. I don't think I did very well at that. I tried. I ate a lot. But I did not feel uncomfortable like I did last time. I ate a lot. High fat! And I gained weight. I bounced up to 278 in 3 days. Three days!!! I have gaining weight down to an art.

Monday I started the "starvation" part of the of the diet. And I was hungry. HUNGRY!!!!! When it was time for lunch I was not willing to wait until the other girls went out to get theirs. A few of the days I might have been willing to chew off my arm by the time dinner rolled around. I wanted food. I tried to remind myself that this is what it was like last time. But my belly -- or was it my mind? -- did not care. I wanted food.

And I cheated. A lot. I mean, not a lot of food. But I cheated every day. A little. I had a roll at dinner. I had cheese as a snack. I had corn for dinner. I had green beans. I cheated.

Oh and I had Arby's. I don't normally go to Arby's. Actually, I never go to Arby's. I think I might have gone once or twice before. In my life. And I mentioned this to Mama Loca and she was stunned. And annoyed. She threatened to drop me as a friend if I did not promise to go during the month of August. And since I can not afford to lose even one of my not-so-faithful followers, I went. And I have to say that Arby's is a place that ... I have no intentions of visiting again. It was just not all that impressive. Or even appetizing. I ate it. I had more calories then allowed. And it so wasn't worth it.

So at the end of the week I am down to 273. Not as good as last round of HHCG but given my lack of committment I so can not complain. 5 pounds in one week is good. And I will take it. And if I can lose 5 pounds a week I can still hit my goal of 40 more pounds. Ooops!!! Now I only need 35 more pounds. Before Halloween. That is so possible.

Mean Mama